I can't help but feel like I'm at a pivotal point in my life. I have learned in my 26 years on this planet that when darkness creeps in, light is just ahead. So, with that said, I admit to feeling emotionally dissatisfied but I am remaining positive as I know I will be out of the woods soon. I made the choice last week to censor the negative influences in my life; that has continued into this week. An old friend who has used my kindness as a revolving door has walked back in once again. This time, after pondering the options for one day, have decided to close that door and lock it. I care so much about making people happy that it is EXTREMELY difficult for me to walk away from a friendship. However, I refuse to allow someone to associate with me only when it's convenient for them.
My new life in Texas is a good one; I would like for everyone to think it's better than it is. Truthfully, I'm very lonely most days. I feel like a prophet roaming the desert for answers. Okay, so maybe that's a little extreme, but I do feel lost. I have made friends and met countless people but I don't feel like I have found what I left home in search of. That's not entirely true actually... I left for peace of mind and in search of happiness and I did reach that on a minuscule level. On this topic my thoughts begin to scatter. I am overrun with thoughts, ideas, and emotions so I am going to make this short. I will revisit this topic when I can be more clear and concise. xoxoxo
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