cosmic.love.

A falling star fell from your heart and landed in my eyes. I screamed aloud, as it tore through them, and now it's left me blind. The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out. You left me in the dark. No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight in the shadow of your heart. And in the dark, I can hear your heartbeat. I tried to find the sound. But then it stopped, and I was in the darkness, so darkness I became. The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out. I took the stars from our eyes, and then I made a map. And knew that somehow I could find my way back. Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too so I stayed in the darkness with you.

useless.facts.

1- The name Cicero in Latin means chickpea (aka garbanzo bean). 2- For the first five years of my schooling I attended a Pentecostal private school where two years in a row I won the "Christian Character Award" for being the most Christ-like of the entire student body. 3- I prefer little to no ice in my beverages. 4- Watching others brush their teeth makes me gag. 5- I brush my teeth with lava hot water.

vacancy.

(02.05.2014) I sit at the starting line like a lump of depressed worn out flesh. I am soon to embark on a journey to what is supposed to be "the mother land," afterall, these are the cities and people that shaped and molded the creature I am now. But it doesn't feel like the promised land. It feels like hell. A past that holds so many painful memories. I keep the trips to hell as infrequent as possible. If I wanted to stab myself in the emotions I would just save the money and treat this Wednesday evening like any other, hunkered in solitude making friends with lonliness and despair. Lonliness visits frequently and makes no matter to whose company I am keeping at present. I will find myself in a loud social gathering, surrounded by smiles and care-free banter, still feeling like I am the only one left of my kind. A single broken soul with a hole so deep that the sands of time could drain it's last drop and I will still have vacancy.

I literally find Dallas gay life to be nauseating. So many rotten pieces of fruit have ruined the entire batch in my opinion.