jagged.

Like any uncharted territory I must seem greatly intriguing.  You speak of my love like you have experienced love like mine before.  But this is not allowed, you're uninvited.  An unfortunate slight.

...I don't think you unworthy.  I need a moment to deliberate.

accurate intuition.

She was stretched out, lounging if you will, with all the beauty befitting a celebrity of her magnitude.  Famous in her own right she has been seducing men for years.  Rich men, poor men, old, and young – no one has been exempt from her allure.  Who would deny her, given her consistent adornment that shined so bright that a blind man would stop dead in his tracks to gaze in awe?

I was cursed with the gift of accurate intuition.  Unable to ignore my curse I often see the worst in others but feign trust in their character in an effort to keep peace.  With one look at her I felt an icy chill travel from the heels of my feet to the nape of my neck.  I was unable to interact with her without seeing the empty shell that lies behind her bright face.  Given half of a chance I would trade my curse for the naive shroud that drapes most of the fools sauntering thru their seemingly blissful lives for they have the fast and easy lane down Father Time’s freeway.

Refusing to be party to her fruitless and hollow existence any further, I decided to walk away with nothing but my best wishes for her and those that love her.  This soulless diva is best known as Las Vegas.  I kiss her goodbye next week and won’t be looking back.      

Photo taken by Cicero Keating, 10/08/2012

all smiles.

I love the heartfelt gestures that you don't expect.  A message I received just moments ago from a long-time friend:

"You're an amazing teacher and the best role model anyone could ask for!"

He also went on to say:

"I totally think you are on the right path! I mean think back to that girl in the drag trailer, as much as she may have wanted to do you think she ever in a million years thought she would get out of Jacksonville, let alone North Carolina? As much as you've helped me grow, I've thoroughly enjoyed watching you grow as well, your not like everyone else you have to do things YOUR way and that's not always a bad thing, you make your own path and follow your heart wherever it leads. Trust in yourself, I don't want to say your always right about everything, however when it comes to the big stuff, the life altering decisions you always have this sort of heightened sense of what needs to be done! So do as you've always done and follow your heart wherever it may lead you, and always know that no matter what (even if its only in spirit) I'm right by your side supporting whatever decisions you make!"

I am not blogging this message to glorify myself by any means.  I am blogging it so I can read it every time the skies around me seem dark and I feel like giving up.  I have the most amazing friends/family that any person could ask for!

ravages of spirit...

Every moment marked
With apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
Trying to escape this desire
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
But I have the sense to recognize
That I don't know how to let you go
I do what I have to do

gypsy.

I have always followed my heart, sometimes to a fault.  All too often someone that I love gets hurt in the crossfire of my decision.  But when I know in my heart of hearts what has to be done, I do it no matter the consequence.  With that in mind, I am ever so grateful for the career opportunity handed to me with Imagine That! in Las Vegas, Nevada, however I am resigning on the best of terms to follow my heart back to the city that holds my heart.  Dallas, Texas found me by mistake in January 2010 and has refused to let go of me since.  I escaped to Las Vegas in October 2012 and I gave it my all.  After weeks of deliberation I have made the choice to return to Dallas.  I feel I have unfinished business and more memories to be made with my life in Texas.  I have no regrets and am glad I gave Las Vegas a chance.  I have met some wonderful people on this short journey.  It is my hope that we will remain friends for many years to come.  I feel a little lost today as I close a short chapter in my autobiography but I am thrilled to ponder the possibilities of this next journey.  I leave Las Vegas on February 15^th 2013 a better person than when I arrived on October 7^th 2012.  Call me a gypsy if you must… I’ve been called worse.  But at the end of the day I live my life in a way that makes me happy so that I may leave this world a bit brighter than when I found it.